Hello Fellow Servants of God,
I remember looking up the term “servant of God” in the bible over a year ago. I was curious about the term servant because I wanted to face my fears about what exactly that meant. What I found was a surprise to me. What I read assuaged all my fears and smashed a lot of concepts I have about sacrifice and about the meaning of being God’s servant. It says in the bible that the servants of God are blessed in all ways and always protected and guided. It says that a great portion, provisions, and blessings are provided. They are protected from darkness, even while surrounded by it.
This was the anthem we sang at the recent retreat “Embracing Your Greatness of God.” Please listen to this song to experience the retreat with us. Listen here for the artists original version: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YiDpIaXQDrI
During one moment in the 4 day retreat, Padre Paul said, “There are 8 of you who are yearning to devote your life to Jesus. I want you to come to the front to dedicate yourself and receive your blessing.” Well I was taken over by the Spirit and rushed up there as quickly as I could. Virginia asked me why I was there. I told her “I want to dedicate my life to Jesus!” She smiled so full of GRACE as is her WAY.
It wasn’t only 8 people; it was 150 people who stood up for this blessing. As more people walked up to the line to be healed, the group began to sing in such melodic tunes, beyond any song we’ve ever sung before. I prayed for Jesus to sing through me, and the sound came through that was new and so beautiful. I gave thanks to God, and I asked for more. I asked God to purify me so He could use me.
When I received my blessing, my body, mind and spirit became light, felt empty like country air in a grassy field, and my cells tingled and vibrated. I felt like my DNA was changing—and just a moment after that Padre said to everyone, “Your DNA is changing right now. Receive it. Let Jesus in. And at that moment, I could feel what it was like to surrender my being to Jesus and channel Him.”
And after I got back to my seat, as I began to let Jesus sing through me more and more, the people on the floor in front of me begin to cry from their experience with the Presence. I felt that those around me began to fall into perfect harmony and unified in song too. The atmosphere was thick with God energy.
Three days later, on Wednesday, April 27, Tuan and I picked up Padre to take him to Grass Valley to the Healing Service at Unity Church with Rev Jerry Farrell. On that morning, he told us that on Thursday we might see a Catholic Exorcist named Father Guglielmo “William” Lauriola who knew Padre Pio. A good friend of ours, Barbara Rose Billings talked to Padre about this sepecial priest about a year ago and had invited the Padre the opportunity to have a private session with him if he so desired. Well on Tuesday he gave Barbara a call and she arranged this beautiful encounter with Fr Williams as Tuan and I tagged alot for the ride! Even though I cheerfully agreed to go see Father William, I was secretly hoping that it would not happen. I was scared to experience a “hell and brimstone” experience after having such an ecstatic experience at the retreat. I also knew that it meant a lot to Padre, so I told God that if it was HIS WILL for us to go see Father William, we would definitely commit to being Present 100%.
On Thursday morning, I got a call from Padre telling me that we would not be going. I was relived, but I asked God to ensure that His original plan for our day together would be aligned to the GREAT Divine PLAN. Also I asked God to take away my fear, anger, and resentment towards the Catholic Church. I felt very free and looking forward to taking Padre to the best Crab Cioppino place in North Beach and the Portzuincola Nuova which is the ¾ sized version of the Chapel of Assisi.
God had a different and better plan for us. When arrived to pick up Padre, we found out that, we had an appointment to see Father Williams at 2:30 pm that day.
The Chapel of Immaculate Conception is nestled in the Bernal Heights neighborhood in San Francisco. Inside the meeting room was a stature of St. Terese, a print image of the last supper, and an image of the Divine Mercy which is the classic image of Jesus with blue and pink light shining from his heart. The rectory smelled like my childhood Catholic school—frankincense, candles, and rose water.
We left a seat at the head of the table for Father William. When he arrived, he seemed to have a stern look on his face. He carried a book and sat down. I prayed to God, “Please make me clean for this experience, to honor it.”
He looked into each of our eyes for several seconds. I felt like I was holding my breath. I asked Jesus and God to please hold the vibration in the room at the highest level of creator that was appropriate for everyone in the room.
I braced myself for “hell and brimstone” which was my old form of seeing the church. Padre had prepared us in advance to be ready for a traditional experience, and whatever we do, do not lie. Padre encouraged us to be ourselves, but I was afraid that Father Williams would see all my shames and not accept me. I asked God to take away my fear and to help me appreciate this experience.
Then Father William asked his first question, “Do you believe in Angels?” We were shocked. I asked Jesus to please speak through me. I tried to tap into the vibration and healing experience from the Retreat. After a silent pause, he asked again but more insistently this time, “Do YOU BELIEVE in Angels?”
Jesus spoke through me, “When we were in Israel at the Transfiguration. I saw two angels. We were singing in the garden, and I felt a lightness come over me. Above me in the sky were two angels.”
“Do you know who they are?” Father Williams asked.
“I know what the bible says that they are, but to me, they looked like two angels in orthodox art work form. They were wearing gold, and then there was bright flash of white light. From the white light came a voice. At the time my grandmother was dying in the hospital and I asked that voice about what to do. He said, ‘Your grandmother is already living with God. She is already healed. Her body may deteriorate, but her Spirit lives with God. Go to the garden and take a rose pedal to your grandmother.’ When I came back to San Francisco, the next morning the voice said, ‘Take the rose petal to your grandmother so she can eat it.’ I took the rose pedal to my grandmother and she held her hand out to receive the rose petal like the Eucharist. I gave the rose petal to her and she began to walk again. We took her to her favorite church. Only one week before she could barely walk or carry her own weight, but she walked one block AND up and down the stairs. God blessed her with her last wish to visit her favorite church one last time.”
Father Williams asked again, “Do you believe in Angels?”
I said “Yes.” Father Williams asked each of us in turn. Padre said, “Yes.” Tuan said, “Yes.”
Father Williams said, “At the transfiguration, what happened to that light? What do you think that light was?”
I said, “That light, that voice was Jesus.”
Father William said, “Where is that light now?”
I said, “Here” and I pointed to my heart.
Father Williams smiled and then asked me, “Do you control the angels?”
I said, “No.”
He asked me again, “Do you control the angels?”
I said, “No.”
Then he asked, “Then why do they do what you ask?”
I said, “I pray to God for help and guidance, and God uses the angels to fulfill His Plan. I pray and then I wait.”
Father Williams smiled a HUGE SMILE of approval.
I had passed the test.
I sent loving thoughts to the Catholic church and all the people who had taught me well over the years. He looked at me and nodded in confirmation as I sent that feeling of love for God’s Church and all good people, all servants of God, and all my spiritual teachers including Padre Paul and Dana.
Father William began to smile cheerfully showing his teeth like a child who had just discovered a new flower in the field. I felt like he saw and felt my prayer of thanks and blessing. I felt like my relationship with the Catholic Church was healed in that moment.
He opened a book and then showed us the title, “Angels in My Hair” by Lorna Byrne. He asked us if we read this book or not. We said no. He seemed surprised that we had not.
He told us a story of a child who could see angels and talked to them. Because she was mesmerized by the angels, she was often seen as dumb or stupid by the teachers and other students, but she was not dumb. She saw angels. The story is about how the teacher had a little bit of money and proposed a riddle to the kids for a half crown. The riddle was to tell him the meaning of the crown. Each of the children were given a chance, but the teacher did not give a chance to the child that saw angels. The angels whispered in his ear to give the little girl a chance, but he resisted. This happened several times, and each time the teacher did not give the girl a chance. After asking every student, no one knew the answer. Finally the teacher gave in to his angels and asked the girl. She said, “The meaning of the crown is three” and everyone cheered and she won the half crown reward, which at that time was a lot of money for any family.
We listened patiently to hear the gem, the meaning in the story for us.
Then Father Williams said to us, “You see angels. You believe in angels. You work with Angels.”
Tuan shared his story that when he was a child, there was school shooting and was spared. The angels came to him and told him, “go inside, inside is better for you now, go inside.” And he was safe from the shooting. He was even given an award by a celebrity for surviving the experience.
Then Padre asked a question. “Father, how do you know that the supernatural is God and not something else? You see I once had an experience of driving and turning to the left and a car came through us instead of hitting us. Was that a real car? Could the angels make the car go through us?’
Father Williams said, “Yes it was a car. And it was the angels that helped you.”
We were stunned at this honest and matter a fact answer. It was as if he saw the movie in his mind. I felt like he could see every piece of the miraculous manifested in my life and that was a confirmation for him too.
Father Williams looked up at the light coming through the window. I felt like he was listening to Jesus and Padre Pio. He said to us, “You see angels. You believe in angels. You work with Angels. God uses humans and angels to complete his work. Food is a portion given to you. You can eat good food but eat what is your portion, eat what is placed before you. Poverty is not God’s plan for humanity. God’s plan is to provide for us. People shame and ridicule those that believe in angels. They call them crazy. They call them stupid but they are not stupid. They are servants of God.”
We nodded in agreement and thanked him for that. All of us shared our experience of how others ridicule us. He said, “God uses you and uses the angels to do fulfill His Will. This is good work.”
Then he began a long poetic flow of information to us all, “Do you know why the churches are empty? Because soon there will be no churches. Soon the churches will be in your homes. In the land of a thousand churches in Italy, near Padre Pio’s monastery are a thousand churches that stretch from here to the ocean (about 5 miles). In these homes live Monks, and the Monks have children. We used to have a 3 year monastic program, but you see what is happening outside in this world? Then we made a 1 year program, once a week, but now we have a 3 month program. We need this to reach more people. It is where you come here every weekend for three months to become a monk. Soon, there will be no churches, only monks. In the monastic program, we teach you to. Well do you know what the WAY is?”
I asked, “Is the way the journey?”
He asked, “What is the meaning of life?”
I asked, “To grow closer to God?”
He asked, “But what is the way to God?” There was a long pause before he said,“The way is Jesus.”
He asked us “What is the way?” several times. Each of us, in turn said Jesus.
He said, “The way is Jesus. Not just a path or journey, it is Being Jesus.”
We were WOW-ed by his answers.
He began to answer a number of questions we had in our hearts and had discussed earlier, “Being Jesus. We teach you to be the WAY in three months so you can gather Jesus’ people together in your home, your friends home, anyone you want. It does not need to be in a church—you do not have to open your door to the public. You invite others to the WAY. This book about Angels, helps make the Bible understandable. How are you going to make the Bible real for people? “
We said, “The WAY.”
He said, “Yes the WAY. In the land of a thousand churches, families live happily. This place is real. It is in Italy near Monteceito, near Padre Pio’s Monastery is a valley where monks live with their children and their families and each home is a church. This is what the world will be like according to God’s Plan.”
He introduced us to his blessed water. He said he uses a Ukranian method of blessing the water. He said, “This is Exorcism Blessed Water” and he smiled like a child filled with the wisdom of a 100 year old sage. He blessed us in the name of Jesus Christ on our foreheads and our hands. To us it meant more than just Being Christ, but also doing God’s work too. Father Williams’ hands were large but when he blessed us, his hands felt small and dainty, as if it was Divine Mother was blessing us with her delicate soft hands.
Afterwards, when we went to the Chapel of Immaculate Conception, the smell of incense was so rich and wonderful. The frescos were so ornate and colorful. Inside, as I sat, I tapped back into the tingling of the Presence of Jesus in my life.
I remembered Father Williams voice, “Be inside Jesus; that is the way.” I felt that DNA shifting just like I did at the Retreat. I just kept saying, “Thank you, God. I want more of God in my life. God, make me useful to you in all my existence.” Then I felt a warm glow in the church, and I was guided to say 10 Hail Marys.
On the drive back to San Rafael, Padre led us in the Sorrowful Mysteries honor Mother Mary’s sacrifice. Later when I looked up the chapel name online, I found out that in 1996 there was an apparition of the Divine Mother in that chapel that showed up at 9:30 pm everyday.
Blessings to All of YOU!
A Smiling Padre